It's been a long ass time since I've written anything here, gotten out of the habit of writing about every little irk and itch that comes up. ;-)

Hunter's third birthday is arriving soon, which has been exciting. After a fairly slow summer and start of the school year, it seems like things might be going up and I may have netted a daycare spot back with H's old daycare, until the end of the school year in June or so. My hopes for going back to school and finishing are being relegated to the back burner though.

My mum's become obsessed with the need to sell the house and move into a condo. Jason's flat out refused to let me live with him and my mum doesn't seem to give a shit what Jason wants and is still planning on selling the house. So basically, I'm going to be without a house sometime in early 2008, likely. At the good end, Jason has said that he'll take Hunter. So at least that's good. On the suck end, I'm not quite sure what I'm going to do. Couch surf with a couple friends I guess.

Since I'm updating again, forgot to mention..

( Urge to Splurge 2007 )

Can't believe I haven't updated since July.

Things with Mike didn't end well. Nuff said. I lost $1200, the house but I'm happy to have my life back and things back to normal. :-) I'll call it a learning experience.

So I'm staying with my mum a bit longer, a bit of a disappointment for both of us, but better in the long run. I'm applying for subsidized housing and taking that route again.

I'm enrolled in school again and I have a better idea of where I'm going with that and my life post-school then I think I ever had. It's a completely different route then I was thinking but it feels so much more right. I'm not going to say much more because I don't want to jinx anything and I'm feeling very insecure (but happy) about my abilities and I don't need yet more people telling me there's no way I can achieve it or how uncapable I am.

So really right now, that's about it. 2007 has become my year to define myself, shed my old lifestyles and really set in stone who I think I'm going to be for the rest of my life. Yay early 20s.

I update Hunter's livejournal hunterkai a lot more. And he's just cuter, so go read it lol.

Don't really update this too much anymore. A lot of stuff going on and not much that I really want to write about. At least yet. :-) It's not all bad though, in fact...there's good chance this could be one of the best decisions I've made in my life and that something incredibly wonderful and positive could come out of it. But until things are more solid, I'm staying zip.

Anyway, I'm prepping to move out, hopefully by August 1st, so not a huge lot of time left. And still so much to do! I've accomplished quite a bit in the past month and even more, I have this...



May not seem like a lot to most people but it's pretty much more money to my name then I've ever had in my life. Also doesn't include the $190 I just made selling off my LD dolls, $100 bonus, $149 GST and (on the 20th or 21st) the $244 (I think) CCTB. So by the end of the month I should be close to cracking $2000.

Other then that, life continues on.

Things are looking up a bit.

I'm in pre-move right now. Trying to sell off what I can't/don't want to take, find homes for our two cats, arrange charity pickup of a bunch of garage-sale leftovers as well as junk pickup of all the random stuff that I can't sell or giveaway. It's quite busy. I also have a nice heap of paperwork to read through, fill out and take here and there. Paperwork for July daycare subsidy, paperwork for subsidized housing, phone call to make to apply for welfare. I saved up $1200 which I'm really happy about, but I need to take it out and hide it because you're only allowed $250. But I'm still excited. I think this is a good thing and I'm looking forward to getting out on my own and getting Hunter and I a little place of our own.

Woop. Second day on the job. Def a bit more confident and chatty today. Learned how to change a tire. Goddamn those tires are heavy. Took everything I had to lift them and still had to kinda balance them on my hip/leg to get them on. Gotta get strong and buff I see! :-D Got to use the airgun which was a bit unnerving at first...very loud. But I got the hang of it quick. Helped out with a couple more oil changes, watched a muffler replacement, more paperwork, estimate program work on the computer. Uhh, I think that was it. There was actually more cars than yesterday but for some reason not as much to list, slower work. Hopefully won't get in trouble tomorrow for leaving early. They only have one clock in the entire place it seems, and I checked it and it said 1:54 (I swear to God, I really don't think I misread it) so I left, because I'm done @ 2. But when I got to the daycare, their clock only read like 1:20. :-/ But by that point Hunter was up, had seen me and was demanding his shoes and coat to go home so I couldn't really go back. We'll see I guess.

Thanks for all the well wishes on getting better! Hunter's mostly over it, he slept well last night...albeit on the floor of my bedroom. But he was sooooooooooooo clingy today when I tried to drop him off for daycare. God it breaks my heart, I seriously was tearing up because he's just sitting and wailing at the top of his lungs "No mama!" "Mama up!" "No go!" "Mama uv!!" (love) Oi. :( *sigh* My cold still hasn't materialized much *crosses fingers*

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Hunter and I were off sick today, mostly cuz the daycare wouldn't take him. But my nose is just a tiny bit stuffy and my throat is a bit sore and glands a bit swollen. But it felt like this yesterday and it hasn't materialized *knock on wood* So I'm really hoping I won't get sick sick. I really don't need anymore time off this WEX!

Naughty us, 10:44 and Hunter and I are still awake lol. But god bless he's a cutie. He slept from like 7:30ish until 10 and then gets out of bed and comes out and goes "Cuddle bed! Cuddle bed!" until I took him in to my bed and cuddled with him.

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What a morning! Had my interview though..

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Things are going ok here. I'm 1/2 through my English course. Handed in a long overdue project finally today. And the teacher came by and said she was going to omit me having to do 1/2 the next paper, because the work through SIDES courses is waaaaaaay more than you get in a traditional classroom and that's unfair. Which is great, except I'd already spent like 15 hours working on the stupid paper lol. Ah well. Least it means I'll finish it up within a week and hopefully get my next module soon.

I also have a new work experience interview tomorrow @ 11, which I'm psyched for. Slightly awkward because it's a rush job, since I have to be back at Hunt's daycare by 12. Hope the manager isn't late for the interview!!

Had 2 people randomly come up and start talking to me about my tattoos as well. Kinda fun!

Updated Hunter's journal a few times with new info and pix as well. hunterkai

:-D S'all for now.

AWEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEESOME day today. :-D



Hunter and I met up with Kacey and her daughter Layla, Kylene and her son Kaiden and Haley and her son Preston. They're all within about a month in age. We all headed off to the Beacon Hill Petting Zoo and playground and they all had suuuuuuuch a breeze. Hunter had so much fun with the other kids and the goats and bunnies and playground. It's the first time we've all hung out in 6+ months. It's really hard between people moving, school, etc. :-D Hopefully gonna make it more regular now that the weather is nice too! Tryin to entice the girls to Undersea Gardens next time!

More pix later, too tired now.

Also looking in to subsidized housing. Kylene has a really nice place she just recently moved in to. It's a 2 bedroom and she pays about $270 a month for it. Not bad at all eh? It's in a not too bad neighbourhood, on bus routes and all that jazz. They have a sign out front so I'm hoping that maybe it won't be too long before I can get in. She was on a wait list for 2 years but we were both thinking that if they had such a long wait list right now, why would they put a big sign out front with a # to call? Wouldn't they just start going down their list privately and pop someone in right quick? Anyway, never hurts to investigate and I'd love to get outta here and start doin some realllllllll livin!

Best picture EVER lol.



Mike and Isaac are over for another pajama party. :-D It's 9:30 and they're still roaring around. Too funny.

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My new housemates!



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I miss her a lot tonight.

I hate writing and we-writing the same entry. But there it is. At least this time I miss her because things are going well, not because things suck and I'm down, right?

There's so many things I want to tell her. Hunter's come so far in the past month and even further in the past two months, and she won't get to see it and god, she would've loved it. She would've loved him even more right now, with all the talking. This is also about the time/month that she wanted to take him back to swimming lessons and playgroup. And Hunter keeps talking about "Gramma! Gramma!" and wanting to look at her pictures. I wanted her to hear him say Grandma just once but we didn't make it.

And I keep thinking about all the things she and I had talked about doing that we never will. The trip to Edmonton, going up island again, Hunter and I staying overnight. And stupid things that are kinda pointless, like the playpen she bought thinking Hunter might stay overnight sometime and it never happened. Kinda silly considering I know she likely didn't care herself since she saw him 2-3 times a week either way lol.

And she'd probably slap me for whining on like this about her so I'll stop now.

I dropped off my resume and cover letter today. I have the job, committed to 30 hours total of volunteering there, then after that I guess we'll see. Should be good. Waiting for a call for my interview now. :-)

And Mike and I have a date on Sunday, so that also should be good. We've been hanging out a bit more again and it's nice.

I have a job interview on Friday. It's just with an Esso station, working cash most likely, but still! Yay! It's for a work experience course at school. It'll be 40 hours volunteer and then likely 60 paid. Or vice versa, I forget. Hopefully it'll go well!

And even more exciting, I'm starting to plan my first real trip by myself. :-D I've been on an awesome forum for young mothers for 2 years now. It's very small, with only about 7-9 active members so we're really really close. And we're planning to do a get together. Probably not until at least 2008 cuz we all need time to plan and save.

The problem is deciding where to go! We're all so spread out lol. Right now there's about 4-5 of us who seem to be really serious to do this. I live on the westcoast of Canada, one lives London (England), one lives in Maryland and one in Texas.

Exciting!

You dated someone. Then you broke up. But you still really care for each other and are "friends with benefits". But you come across some information accidentally that isn't very good and breaks a lot of trust in them and exposes a lot of potential lies they told you.

What do you do?

Keeping in mind the relevant points, that you're no longer together and you found out by accident and they don't know that you know what you know.

If that sounds complicated...it all boils down to a jealousy issue over someone you're not together with, just screwing.

We did end up putting Lucy to sleep yesterday afternoon. It's very sad and I miss her quite a bit already. Even with two other cats, the house just seems a bit more empty without her laying out in the hallway or barreling up the stairs at dinnertime. My mum decided not to take her ashes, they'll be scattered somewhere (the hospital has a place they do it). We'll get a pawprint. I was not there when they put her to sleep but apparently it was very very fast and painless and the people were very lovely. So thank you to them.

Here's a picture of me and Luce back when I was only 11 or so.


Miss ya old gal.

On the upside, it was Preston (Hunter's friend)'s second birthday today. So we had a lot of fun going out and doing that. Expect lots of pictures tomorrow (likely). Too late to do it now. A big happy birthday to Lil P. :-D

This is my kitty Lucy. It looks like she may be heading for the end. She's been very sick lately, in a bunch of different ways. Started off with her eye, spread to not eating/drinking/using the litterbox. Finally took her in to the cat hospital where she's spending tonight. She's gone blind in both eyes, she has high calcium which is a sign of cancer and they suspect something is wrong with her kidneys as well.

It's a bit saddening because she's been in the family since I was only about 8 or 9 and is by far, my favourite of our three kitties. A very very sweet, cuddely girl who loves nothing more than snuggling on your legs. She recently decided her new sleeping place was my bed and it was really nice because she hadn't spent much time around me because of Hunter. But she's around 15 years old, so quite old for a cat, and she's lived a long good spoiled life so I also can't complain too much.

We'll have to wait and see.